One Month

I've been a Mommy for an entire month. Wow. Time flies eh?

Thing are going much much better. I'm 100% breastfeeding (yay!). I finally just said NO MORE FORMULA and completely cut it out. It just wasn't right. I didn't feel right about giving it to her because it would make her sleep more and she wasn't getting the supply, so how could my milk increase? So I went to my favourite message board and they suggested I take a "nursing vacation". Basically I stayed in bed with her for a couple of days and just let her eat and eat. Oh and I also started eating oatmeal every day. It worked!!! She eats like a champ now. Heck she even spits up (who thought I'd ever be happy to be spit up on). She poops, pee's....everything is good. On Monday we find out how much weight she'd gained, the last "worry".

I'm still wearing her ALL THE TIME. In fact, if she's not eating she's passed out on me. I love it but her Grandma doesn't. She tried watching her tonight and baby just cried and cried. Grandma is a bit too big for this pouch, I might see if I can get another one that's bigger so she can wear her. It's the last hurdle because she will take a bottle. Grandma is SOOOOO dissapointed, it breaks my heart, but she'll have lots of opportunities when she's older to watch her!

We've been venturing out a bit more now that we know how to settle her. I've looked into some programs and we start them next week. I'll be singing songs with her, learning to massage her, stuff like that. It's so nice to get out and be among the living. This house is big but not THAT big and the days do get quite lonely.

Development wise people tell me she's bigger (I'm with her 24/7 so I don't notice anything), she's more alert for longer periods now, I swear she smiled at me the other day for REAL and she's focusing in on toys and stuff. Not much, the books say things will really get exciting this month.


For My Darling Baby Girl: I am so in love with you. Right now you're sleeping away on my chest and I smile every time you make a noise. I kiss you a lot too, you better get used to it. Feeling you snuggle into me the way you do is the best feeling in the world. I've never felt so lucky.